It was exactly on the 17thday after my LMP. It was weekend and I was at work. I was getting ready to leave the office since it was almost five p.m. Before I leave office I went to the restroom to pee and I saw blood on my panties. It was not bright red but I was devastated. I rushed out of the toilet and told my supervisor that I am not feeling well and I might not be able to come to the office after weekend. Seeing my face he did not ask me what happened. He was not aware of my pregnancy since I planned previously to tell the world when I start to show. CJ came to pick me up, he was waiting downstairs. I was almost crying and I told him about what happened.
The OB we have consulted gave us her contact number and I called her immediately. She was not really as concerned as I was. She asked me whether I was bleeding heavily; I said no. I wanted to see her immediately and she kinda reluctantly said okay.
We were really shocked to find out how she dealt with the situation. She actually told me there was nothing she could do if the pregnancy was not viable. And she said it very rudely. She gave me progesterone supplements and asked me to see her with u/s report after three days.
We came home with broken heart. On the way back CJ wanted to stop at my parents place, he kept on insisting that I should spend the night there. That was the last thing I wanted to do right then. I just wanted to be all by myself. We came back home and I could not stop crying. I was bleeding constantly as if I was having a normal period.
In the morning CJ took me to my parent’s place; I did not stop him any more because he was scared and upset.
I was on bed rest for the next three days. My mom was still very positive, she said despite all these bleeding I could still be pregnant. Yeah right! On the third day we went for the u/s.The ultra showed there was nothing inside! Absolutely nothing!
The doctor who was doing u/s asked what was wrong with me. After we’ve explained he said it was a good thing that my uterus was empty and I do not need a d/c. Well I guess that was something good out something so bad!
I consider myself to be a very practical person. I was very upset but I decided to move on. I thought since I got pregnant with our first try it means I can get pregnant. So I am done with the first step. One miscarriage is very common so now that I had a miscarriage that means I am right now on the other side of the statistics. I mean on the better side! So I can pretty much be sure that my next pregnancy is going to be fine.I decided to see a doctor before we start TTC again. I was a little desperate and decided not to wait any longer. I was surfing net like crazy, looking for positive stories.I could not wait any longer. Suddenly my life became very focused on having a baby!
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