Where did I put my remote – I want to fast forward few days of my life!

So here I am – I have a urine test report to prove I am pregnant but my mind does not really make me feel so pregnant. I am in denial and worrying every moment its not going to last too long. I think it’s a state which is called half pregnant!
As CJ says, my ‘processor’ never [...]

Counting days…

I want to thank everyone who reads my blog. I started this blog because I needed a place to vent and talk about having babies continuously. In my real life I need to be a sane girl who is not much bothered about all these; she is very strong, very practical and takes life very [...]

I wish I could stop thinking about it

I can see how the previous losses have stolen the joy of this ‘new possibility’ (I am not comfortable with the actual ‘P’ word yet). Both CJ and I are in denial. We are not talking about it much and most of the time I don’t even remember I got some positive pee sticks.
I have [...]

I have been awarded…Yay!!

OMG OMG I got an award…!!!
Yaaay! This is the first time ever I got any kind of award; well if I come to think of it I did not get so many prizes either in my life. I got a ‘second prize’ when I was in second grade – my dad was the main financial [...]

On the Roller Coaster again?

We have a local saying for those special people when they say something nice and it comes true…its like “May all the good things fall on your face (specially flowers and sandal woods but it can also be yummy foods or precious gems as well).”
So dear Newt; “May all the beautiful flowers and pure sandal [...]

I am sick of seeing the one liners…

Yeah, that’s what I am seeing every morning. I tested two yesterday and one today – same thing!
I still do have little nausea and tiredness so I do have some hope that I may have ovulated later than I think therefore not getting positive yet. Well at the same time I know most probably my [...]

Waiting to get knocked up…

CD 27 today, but I lost track of BBT so it could be anywhere around DPO 10 to 12. I do have few symptoms like I am feeling mildly nauseated after I eat anything (It could be acidity as I am eating outside a lot). I can not keep my eyes open after 9.00 pm; [...]

Journey to Motherland

Things have changed drastically over the few years in this country. Even before three/four years people here were not very familiar with the Mother’s day or Father’s Day concepts. During the last few years a number of TV and Radio channels were launched and as a result now people are celebrating these occasions nowadays.
So yesterday [...]

I am so glad that your pregnancy did not work out!

I can’t believe I am saying this but irony of my life is that it is true.
When my cousin told me she was pregnant, it seemed like the sky fell up on me. I was looking for ways to settle it but I knew the only way was to let the baby go. And it [...]

Is God mad at me for some reason?

I have no words to explain how bad I am feeling right now. I am going through something that I have always intentionally avoided so far. My 20 year old cousin is pregnant and she needs to have an abortion. And I am the one who has to take her to the clinic while I [...]