Cautiously waiting for the Big day!

My ultrasound went well and my boy is measuring right on track! Phew!

Doctors in our country are not too interested to let women have natural delivery. I figured that is mostly because of the following reasons: 


  1. They do not want to take the minimum risks involved in the natural birth. If something goes wrong reputation of the whole hospital goes down.
  2. Since the number of doctors compared to ladies giving birth is very inadequate so they prefer having C-Sections done on days when it is convenient for them.
  3. They are definitely getting paid much higher for the C-Sections.

No matter how bad it sounds things are like this in developing countries. I would definitely like to have a natural delivery but I do not have the guts to insist if my doctor says it’s going to be a C-Section. I know there is not going to be any epidural or any other pain relief if I opt for a natural birth but I am ready to do this – what’s the point of having a major surgery like C-Section if I really don’t need one!

Anyway the only hope I have for natural birth if I go into labor naturally before my due date. They are not going to induce me or let go past the due date that’s for sure.

I wanted to write about the preparation we have taken so far for the baby. If I have to tell you the truth I haven’t done anything. New born babies do not have separate rooms for themselves here – I mean even if some one chooses to decorate one for their baby; the baby will co sleep with them for few months. We don’t have an extra room in our house – we could get our store room but I don’t want to have a separate room for him yet.

I have got one co sleeper which is under lock and key (nobody except for CJ and me knows about it). Got few clothes and random staffs like one bib, a pair of socks (those were bought after each successful ultrasounds) and I haven’t washed them yet.

I know it’s very silly to be scared when I have made this so far. I truly sincerely do not even want to think about the things that can go wrong now – but the thoughts keep coming back to me. I have still got myself living on a secluded land about the whole pregnancy thing and I don’t think I can come out of it until I hold the crying baby in my arms.

I plan to get my hospital bag packed before January 3rd, that’s when my next appointment with the doctor is. Before that I will only buy things that are absolutely necessary for the baby. Hopefully when the baby arrives I can ask CJ to get the rest of the things for me and baby.


Trying not to be stressed over little things

I really wanted to put some pictures in this post but my ‘extra ordinary’ skills with computer and photo editing has made me not to do that since i don’t know how i can reduce the size of the pictures – they are too big. You see I am still not able to put the only award I got (The Pink Rose Award) on my side bar – I still could not figure out how to do that!

Anyway, lots of things going on in life. But most important is that I have lost two pounds in the last two weeks! Although my doctor did not seem concerned at all but I am as usual paranoid. I am going to have an ultrasound on this Saturday just for the peace of my mind. I just want to know that my baby is growing fine and he has not lost any weight!

Another thing that concerns me these days is that fetal movement has decreased a lot. I still fdo feel movements all day but these are not as intense as before. I am just tired of feeling so stressed about this whole pregnancy – I guess there were only few days when I really enjoyed my pregnancy; most of the days I am like – Oh my God, what if this or that happened to my baby!

On a lighter note, last week I came to live with my parents finally! In our culture usually during pregnancy the girls come to stay with her parents. I was fine where I was staying but my MIL was driving me crazy with her weird advices – I just had to come here away from her nonsense. I am pretty bored at my parent’s house but it does feel good to be in my room after years! Planning to be here for at least two more weeks.

Well, if you haven’t already guessed it then here it goes – Yes I live with my in laws because that is what is normal and accepted here in our part of the world!

For example, I and my husband live with our parents in law (CJ’s mom and dad). My brother and his wife live with my mom and dad. My cousins, friends, colleagues everyone do the same here. There are exceptions but only when the couple has some kind big fight with the in laws or there are any problems like space limitation or something that both the parents and the couple understand that there is no way they can possibly stay together.

It is accepted and a general idea here that the daughters shall stay with her parents until they get married (so if a girl never gets married – she stays with them forever).

Well, whatever the reason is – but I am doing okay now there since it is a big house and everybody has their own privacy. I am just glad because we don’t have to pay any rent or not make any food.

But it’s a package deal so I have to hear advices from MIL whenever she sees me. Let me share some here – I am sure you are going to like them 😉

MIL: We need to shave off the baby’s hair within seven days of his birth – otherwise some kind of ghost may bother him!

Me: Smiling and thinking inside – you insane woman no way I am touching a razor on the baby’s scalp!

MIL: Water is very good for the new born. We must give him water all the time or he will be thirsty!

Me: My doctor is going to kill me if I do that!

There’s more and I know she does not mean any harm and this is how she raised her children but please spare me from all these – it’s 21st Century now!